The waiting game.

I am just not a blogger. I just can't do it. I love reading though. I think there are wonderful people in the world who have wonderful things to say. I can write right now because I am basically bed ridden.

I have a ruptured ovarian cyst. It all started sunday, i had sharp pains in the lower left corner of my stomach. It hurt but not too bad. THe next morning I woke up and it hurt more. I went to work and ended up crying because the pain had gotten so intense. My boyfriends mom picked me up because I couldn't drive. She took me to Kaiser and My dirty, smelly, wonderful, lovely boyfriend met me there. I was pulled it so they could take my stats. They put me at the top of the list,( this means nothing when you feel like you are dying). They told me they thought something was wrong with my ovaries. I was terrified. They put in an IV- it came out, they tried on my other arm- it came out. She finally got it in the side of my arm. They took blood and gave me some morphine. P.s. I have not eaten all frickin day. I had to go take a CT scan. I got sick, waited hours. Finally went back and they told me I had a ruptured ovarian cyst, 12 hours later, what they thought I had in the first place.

Apparently, I had a cyst the grew and grew and never dissolved and ruptured, probably while I was at work. My body is supposed to absorb the liquid from the cyst but it is going to be extremely painful so they put me on some very nice pain killers that just so happen to only work for a few hours... but it is supposed to start going away and it hasn't. It still hurts, the same as it used to. I'm scared Im having complications, what if I am bleeding internally or something crazy because I am hurting alot. And they didn't give me any antibiotics, which I think they should have, and my friend who is a nurse said they should have. Right now I am playing the waiting game.... I hate it. It's terrifying.